but what i really meant to say is - im having a fannytastic time being single - im up late - no-one's gonna tell me to 'come to bed'[big grumpy voice] and i can sleep in the middle of my big soft bed...and i can fart and no-one is there to wince or faint.
so - its not so long as i-man but i have just come out of a 6 year relationship that has children and he DID cheat and he IS a fucker but he IS the father of my child and i will ALWAYS love him and have a 'special' place for him. grammar aside, as my brother says i am now the rinsed out mother of two children with a shit show in hell of getting another man :-P [he's drum and bass, im pure rock and roll]. this is the first time i have been single for more than 2 weeks in the last 17 fucken years. i am having big fucken issues (so big i have to swear) dealing with my own mental space. i am loving it however. there are these sad arse moments where tears dwell - i hope i never/split enz...ekjugifdsag...pj harvey c'mon billy is a must throw...but i find batrider gives me strength - as does most PJ [dont mean to diss her] and then Peaches can provide a little moral support of her own.
its about perspective. and being a good parent. can't somebody think of the children. xx
apparently at a fresh 32, i am an "old indie fart" and it told me to fuck off back to my REM records. WTF! Ok - there were a couple of REM songs I MAY have downloaded at some point in my life but never to show up in my record collection. is this based purely on my choosing of the Joy Divison lyric in the first question?
i am not am not am not am not am not an annoying twat.
ok maybe i am an old indie fart but i really take exception at the REM sting. as you may have noticed.
yah yah - that national anthem performance rocked my sad little world!!
when are we going to enjoy a live performance in dunners next?