yep. i screwed up when i bumped into him two years ago at the supermarket, should've kept in touch but i just assumed it was another one of those things where you meet someone you used to know and probably won't see them again but it was nice to have a chat... if anyone is feeling down and wants to be my friend my e-mail is jesuscrux@hotmail.com, phone number (03) 980 5683

why do you ask?

my family going to Hell if it's real, years going by too fast not the way i wanted them to

why would it be lonely up there with the Creator of the Universe? i'm afraid for my family for their sake, not my own

as for nzmusic.hvn, too much intolerance for my liking

just so no-one gets the wrong idea of what i said,

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//Doesn't every adult have responsibility for their own mental wellbeing? Doesn't every adult have an obligation to look after themselves without relying on society to help prop them up?//

depressed people don't want to "get better".

cheers bro, i guess what i was trying to say was that people who appear to be all happy on the outside might be unhappy on the inside... yeah i know that's really cliched but i definitely fell for it. i just wish i had kept in touch with him 'cos i've been suicidal before for similar (although different) reasons (he killed himself 'cos his girlfriend kept cheating on him) and could've probably talked to him about it and shared our feelings... like man if i had to pick people out of our class that would've committed suicide he'd be one of the last, i just wonder if it's because when someone popular and cool feels suicidal they don't know how to deal with it because they've been with the "in crowd" all their lives and it's a whole new feeling for them to get depressed (whereas people who get picked on at school are familiar with it when they think about suicide later in their lives and can bear through just a bit longer)?

and just from my personal experience when i was in a mental hospital after ODing i couldn't stand it there and all i thought about was wanting to get out and i hated all the doctors there 'cos they keep blaming you (in a nice way) for the way you are when for example you might feel like you're suicidal 'cos of what someone else did, same with a few other people there too who were still capable of thinking for themselves instead of completely doped up... what we needed were friends on the outside world 'cos a big factor was loneliness... just my opinion

suicide isn't funny, fullstop.